“In order to be smart, sometimes you have to go crazy or go crazy smart”
Mamardashvili
Throughout our lives, we are accompanied by various events with their own special meanings that shape our experience. In her work, Anastasia reflects on the meanings of our experience as a collection of knowledge and impressions accumulated by a person during his life. Saying that “in fact, we are products of the past, of what we have heard, felt, known and remembered.” When faced with a new, unfamiliar experience, a person constructs its meaning based on memories of seemingly similar things embedded in the past, that is, he shifts the long-established form of something to new fragments of his life. The artist comes to the conclusion that our ideas about surrounding objects and people are often hostages of the past, correspondences taken from memory, figurative models of long-past things. Anastasia sees perceptions, experiences, and memories as “appearances,” “objective appearances,” which can mislead and conceal reality.
In her work, Anastasia tries to escape from the projections of consciousness, go beyond the boundaries of the rooted meaning of past interpretations and try to turn “to her inner organic cohesion”, to the “pure act”. The meaning of creating a work for Anastasia is not in form, color or image, but in the moment of feeling inside the creative act. The artist makes attempts to produce an act “by itself”, without causal necessity, without purpose, without object, not forced by anything, freed from speculation, reflections and mental sensations, not bound by the memory of the past. Anastasia feels the shape, consistency, saturation, texture, the word chemist, makes experiments, but without the presence of a goal, just being in the process of movement. By pouring paint on the canvas, splitting it by various methods, observing the chemical reactions taking place, the artist strives to create conditions for a new conscious experience, a new experience, to “create in order to experience”, to something “that has no other basis for itself than itself.”
“In this sense, a person is a unique value, because everyone has to go to some kind of aimless test, aimless in the sense that a person does not know in advance what it is for and why, and only at the end of his journey can he find out”
Mamardashvili
